You know that feeling when someone you love (or have totally fallen for) drops the B word?
That’s right…he’s breaking up with you.
While you’re a nice girl, you don’t really fit into his vision for the future; you have different hobbies, a vastly different outlook on life, and you really don’t get each other’s jokes.
It’s not that he hasn’t tried to let you down gently. He has, only you’ve failed to recognise or acknowledge that he’s stopped texting you on a daily basis. You figure it’s because of his new job and that he’s busy at work.
He also said that he was going to take you to a movie, but bailed on you half an hour before he was due to pick you up on the night—something that he’s never done before.
But, you’re quick to forgive.
So it comes as a total shock. You’re floored (naturally) and bewildered, when he looks you directly in the eyes and tells you, “I can’t do this anymore, it’s just not working…”
He turns away and heads to the door with that half smile on his face. His bottom lip tightens and his brow furrows as if to say, “I feel really sorry for you,” and then walks away.
That’s when you’re confronted with yourself, and all of your insecurities resurface. Your stomach drops. You’re speechless. Utterly dumbstruck. You’re half-laughing because you feel embarrassed and awkward. But more than that, you feel alone.
What did I do wrong?
That’s how I’ve been feeling lately. But it’s not an individual that I’m possibly breaking up with, it’s an entire organisation.
I’m told that restructures can trigger frustration, anger, loss, and even denial.
Over the recent weeks, I think I’ve experienced all four.
In this case, the news has come at a time when I’m not quite ready to leave the relationship, even though things have settled into a routine that sometimes feels a little too comfortable.
So right now, I’m passing through a second stage of denial in the relationship break-up.
While I’m semi-optimistic that we might have a future together, I also wonder whether there might be other, more attractive fish in the ocean…